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after genting trip ............ CNY coming ~ so i need to went back to my hometown , melaka again ........... u can say tat i'm cruel enough , but really i hate my home ~ but i try to accept it ~ since they r the 1 who big me up ~ but since i'm small the still hope to run away from tis house ~ why ? hahaha ~ i hate it ~ calling u is just 4 work ~ study , no friends and entertainment ~ about study ya ~ u noe wat ? i not hating study but just how i read or study , the word in the book still can't copy in to my brain ~ i damn stupid i noe ~ my dad and mum is good in their study but sorry i not ~ i noe wat i doing , i try to study hard just look like no1 can see it ~ y other people going back their hometown is so happy but not me ? i hope i can be happy when i can spent my time with my family , but y i can't ? i just hope to be normal ~ my dad always say don't compare urself with other , i'm not comparing but just demand something tat is basic from the n...

we had just finish our exam ~ oh well ~ this is the last minutes answer 4 myself ~ b4 the day 4 the trip ~ i keep asking myself ~ should just give up the trip ~ keep thinking , an my tear dropping ~ u may not belive , i crying ~ the final decision ~ i going ~ i don't want myself regret 4 the whole life ~ is not about him , is about us ~ my beloved tkd gang ~ ya i love u all ~ without u all , who should i be ? the day we depart , i taked the morning bus , rushing back to KL~ K ~ and lucky i arrive at the time , 4 the meeting ~ >< deciding the activity tat we going have this year ~ interesting idea ~ a new starting ~ Me , Hui min , Hui Xin , Ah Dian , Xin lei , Ariel , Ben Ben , CK , and Oo Yong ~ can't wait 4 all the activity ~xDD we depart from wangsa ~1.40pm ++ something ~ we arrive titiwangsa and wait 4 other ~ 3 o'clock ~ we on the bus ~ i saw u ~and wat my thinking ? hmm.............. actually i really donno how to face...

after so many days ........... look like it won't change the truth ~ losing u in my life , is so suffer ~ but if tis is the only choice , just wishing u happy and always ~ hope the tarol are accurate ~ just finish exam ~ hmm ~ having a bad time ~ study like hell but when going inside just like i read nothing ~ damn ~ six sub ok ~ how many sub will i fail tis time ?? just awaiting to die ~ now days ~ i just keep going cc at tbr ~ just 4 youtube and sj and g.n ~ kpop ~ love so ~ leaving ~

ok ~ tomoro i gonna have my introduction to information tecnology final exam but i still writing blog at here !!! how genius am  ! Am i crazy ? the reason i writing tis blog is i just finish reading a blog ~lol~ not  lol at all ~ am i crazy ? the way u treat me it still not cruel enough ? but why i still can telling myself to forgive u ~ and still hoping u will happy and get the right person in the future ? i think i really crazy , or i too kind 4 tat , i really blessing with my true heart ~ really ~ cause i really want u to be happy boy ~ maybe i should just call u man ~ i wasting my time reading his blog ............from the end till the starting ........ don't tell me u wanna block me again if u found out i read it ? i think u will , maybe ,tat the attitude u treat me ? and i donno y i read it ~ it just like reading a story book ~ hmm........... actually tis few day i think  a lot ~ i not mature enough ~ so be happy in ur future ~ tat wat i can say , d...

time just like flying and making joke with me ~ it had come to end of the sem again ~ when i close my eye , coming back from The Mines is just like just happen yesterday ~ such a sweet memory ~spending all the time with all my lovely tkd gangs ~ 4 this sem ~ hmmm........... happy , sad and angry , that we go through together ...... uncounted ~ snowflake ~ friendship ~ the things that always make our journey interesting ~ love ~ the sweetest thing but it also the things that make us suffer ~ family ~ 4 me only , giving me a warm hug but too noisy ~ looking back ~ wat had i done 4 tis whole sem ? damn idoit ~ spending money , playing , movie ,haha~ but most of the time , when the sem start ,i crying ~ wat had i learn from u ? yup ~ i learn how to cry , i learn wat is the feeling when u really love a person ~ don't talk about the sad things ~ most of the time , we go lepak together at times square and sungai wang ~ we go watch so many movie , like THE THING, ...

how long had i come to this college ? hmm ...... half year ~ tat mean tat i had know u almost half year ~ i had like u for half years ............. the time past so fast without our knowing ........ i trust myself and trust u , although so many things tat i see and hear from other , wheather bad or good ... i donno y , but i just follow wat my heart and mind say , trust no matter wat happen ....... wat people say , how they scold , how u hurt me , but i still belive , 1 day u may change , although i may not the 1 who let u change , although i not the type of girl u like , but i still waiting miracle to happen , although i noe it won't..... but since when , i start to doubt u , should i continue to trust , is not a good things to hear but should i ? cause i lost my confidence , i lost it , boy , sorry , i don't mean it ~  u may not mind the trust on me to u , but i mind on it , i donno y, i wanna care u , i wanna continue to like u but i lost the confidence , i not d...

sorry ~ since when tis word has coming out from me recently ? the reason i saying sorry , my friend that care 4 me always , i not tough enough to leave out everything yet ~ i still miss that stupid , i still feel uncomfortable when i lose connection wiyh him , i feel insecure when i didn't find out that he is safe .................. sorry , i deactive my account sudden just because he want me to dissappear from his life ....... cause i too mind what he saying , what ever the word he say to me is always in my mind ..... as conclusion , it not nice to say it out but the thing is i still stop myself from stalking him........... is a habit or wat ? i donno ~ if it really a habit i hape i can lose it ...... sometimes the world look perfect from outside but it started to be bad from deep ............ i deactive my account yesterday , the reason is i keep remember the word ........ step out from my life ..... the second time it let me feel like is such difficult to be a good f...