姷瑾

it is a promise~ and this is the last time i turn back to talk about my past~ about my past~ it always make me hate myself~ seeing myself ~ so stupid ~ so lonely~ am i too proud or think a lot than other that having same age with me~ i too careful and walking so fast ~ cause i hate and scare to be hurt ~ and because of too fast ~ i lost the happiness that i should had for my passing age ~ my bro tell me although u loss somethings in the pass but i gain something now and future ~ ya~ just like wat he say i gain something~ i know the world more than other ~ i know what the real world look like~i got more expirence than other~ is not easy to be hurt in the future if u know a lot and think a lot~ face the world ~ face the truth~ this is how i live~ since the new journey start~ i wanna be a better girl ~ slow down my step~ enjoy everything i should have in the collage life~ may be i should think about boys ~ haha~ but not now ~ get a close buddy ~ ya i got a lot now~ study ...

Ok ~ now ~ no i should say ~~~~yes !!!!! finally , finally i finish my 1st sem exam ~ no eco ~ yes ~ i gonna enjoy my time with sleeping , books, drama in this few days~ for 3 weeks ~ i had let myself suffer for cold in library~ i scare cold ~ it make me feel lonely~ i hate to be alone ~ but i don have the choice ~ i don have the right to get my true love~ i donno y ~ i keep telling myself ~ u r just my friend~ but deep in my heart~ i so suffer~ seeing u and her ~ but wat to do~ i prefer to be silient ~ i don want to talk so much ~ so hurt~ so deep~ i tried to control myself from being near with u but it just can't ~ i will be very emotional after seeing somethings tat may have related with u~ i tried to be good attitude to u ~ but i fail to do~ i'm the one who start the quarrel again~ i don want it to happen but it just happen~ i just can't control myself from being angry when i noe u r hurting urself and wat the girl do~ i won't scold the girl ...

ok~ today i had go through the last two paper ~ marketing ~ is quiet a sad thing for me cause i had memorize all the things and the things that come out just half only but...........TT i stil hope can past la~ tomoro~ ok kitchen ~ i try my best to copy and paste all the things into my brain ~ i don wanna fail !!!! u noe ~ 1st time ~ 1st time i study so hard cause exam ~ i noe myself well i don like to study but i had force myself to go library to study 4 3 weeks start from 8.45am till evening !!! arghhh !!! now i'm so tired ~ i don feel to be the best but i wanna try my best~ and about my personal life....hmm.... almost the same makan and study~ but after exam i wanna enjoy !!!!!! sing k~ puchong trip~ movie~ !!! the conclusion~ i will try my best today ~~ study all the things~ it is not a love ~ it just a habit~ is just normal when u beside me~ as a friend~ i treat u just like friend and i love u cause u are my friend but not lover~ till now i just ...

This week exam d ~ ok ~ talking about exam~hmmm..... since when i become so hard working XDD i almost go library 4 study everyday > ya i love myself to be like ta tat means tat i had change to be better person XDD but the things b4 i start study ==||| i pokai liao== wat is pokai ? no money la~~ y ? ok ~ almost everyday i go eat dinner outside hostel ~ that not a main point~ the main point is where i go ~ ya ~ I go mamak , i go restaurant ~ i go western restaurant!!!! i feel to hang myself~ after tat i go pizza , i go mcd , i go sing k !!!!!! hahahaha!! tis is y i pokai XDD no funny == my last hundred ringgit ~ i gave out for Puchong trip d~ T___T but 4 all the monry i spend and the things i do ~ no regret ~ and i enjoy 4 tat~ spending all my time with all my tkd gangs ~ nice ~ tis is the things tat i never expirence b4 when i in secondary school~ sad ~ i donno y all the girls in my secondary school always don't like to call me out~ and they always go by themself ~...

8 of August ,i skip my marketing class 4 lecture cause teman some 1 emo and gonna study 4 exam ~ but the thing after i came back i play FB ~ i feel sorry 4 myself == i go 4 the HE lecture and i regret with my attendance == tourism + hotel management= 400++ students but just 1/10 0f students in the hall == after tat i go 4 the economic tutorial, b4 going i went back to hostel to change cause emo guy Eric call us to sport complex 4 gym ~ another regret attendance 4 me ~ when i reached the class, i shock with a empty class== i feel to jump down from the3rd floor of M block ~ 5pm i go gym to meet them~ but i get message from Chew Ling Eric had a replacement class and he will reach 6++~ wat happen to me T口T but nvr mind , we go in 1st b4 he come~ BenBen and his classmate joining us ~ i go cycle 4 20 min and walk + run 4 30 min~ i think tis is the 1st time i burn so many calories ~== after gym ~it look like going to rain ~ Wan Xuan join us 4 dinner~ we decide go GK 4 pizza ~...

7 of August ~ today i wake up at 11.00am and start writing my blog~down 1 la not now 1~ sit in front of my com i just study half of my introduction~ poor thing> but i still study ~ after 3pm i go lepak a while at Wangsa maju jusco~ when i in melaka , i also love to lepak but the things is i always lepak alone ~ i don't like lepak with all my girls because many things that i can't do when i lepak with them~ suffer u know ~~ i go wangsa to top up my phone credit and i go jj to walk a while and i bought a cup of coolblog ~ my favorite~ oreo peppermint milk tea~ i love milk tea so much >M i go by metro~and also came back with metro~actually i wanna get Rapid but the Rapid didn't come after i waited 4 half an hour == i hate u~ after i come back i straight open facebook~my habit~ and i found out somethings different about Eric ~he is so silent today~ if 1 day he didn't post many things that tell u tat somethings happen~ i not know him well but i still know his habit~ ya...

don't know why ? this few month i started to write my blog in english~ maybe i just wanna improve my english and get some attention from my friends~ not sure about tat~ talking about my blog i really hope to get some atttention from my friends , not all but some of my close friends ~ but the things that i dislike is after some of them read my blog they will laugh and talk about my blog ~ they will say i'm stupid == hey !! this is my blog if u wanna continue to read please shut up your stupid mouth b4 i stuck something inside~ This few day i having a bad mood and keep emoing == maybe some personal problem and some irritating person ~ talking about the person ~ arghhh ! i feel to bite her ! can u understand how irritating if the phone that u keep answer is call by a same person~ this problem strated when i gave her my number ~ i regret with tat == she keep calling me and call me and the reason she calling me always make me to hang up myself ~ ok ,not only her who wanna make me ha...