three month past through ~ next sem a new start again~

ok~
its been for some times i didn't update my blog~
err~reason ~lazy and no idea ~haha~
today the reason i update my post is i just get some idea after i finish BBQ with my family~
so long i didn't spend my time with them ~ i love u all ^^

waiting~

this is my 1st sem break 2rd week d~
the 1st week i spend my time with all my taekwondo gang and buddy at THE MINES resort at Belakong~
1st trip since i had went to TARC to study ~
i don't had the chance to join trip when i still in secondary school cause they always cancel the trip when i decide to join~ tis call wat ~ shui ~ deng~

on wan xuan car ^^

Ben and Caesar

is a memorable trip 4 me~ 1st time i cook 4 all my friends~ i love to cook 4 my friends ~ is my dream and it come true~ so happy ~ seeing them eating the food i cook ~the feeling is so nice ~XDD
we go there to play water sport and BBQ and we even play like crazy person till midnight 3 am XDD
is so excited~ i love it ~XD
many couple going together~ The new couple ~Eric and Mic ~Our senior~WJ and Phee Yee ~ Caesar and Ben Ben^^ at the future maybe another 1 will coming out ~ Julius and Wan Xuan ~ i waiting ~XDD

BBQ-ing

i also go swim at the resort swimming pool ~ early in the morning nice weather ~i swim with wan xuan ~
so nice ~ no boys kacau~ if boys there i not dare to swim cause my body size~ ahhh~ i gain weight d T_T
after the trip ~ we also go 4 movie ~THE SMURF IN NEW YORK～ i though i will sleep inside but i didn't~is a nice movie ~but some 1 did sleep beside me =w=

4 person birthday ~

TKD cake

After the trip ~ i go back To Melaka at 3rd of September ~
i didn't plan to work when i go back~2 weeks time ~ who want me ~lol~
so i decide to help my daddy on deliver the things ~
Gas , flour , rice , oil...........bla bla bla~
The mass of the goods i carry almost is 25 till 50 kg~
i going be a superwoman =w=
my mum say i fatter than last time d ~T___T
wat can i do～when exam coming ~ i feel stress and i just keep eating~ but no regret ~
but the thing is diet become a must do thing~ haiz~ who call i so easy to be fat ~ family face problem ~
and at home ~ everyday i will on my com ~ and i had change my line to maxis although i hate it ~expensive 1~digi y? y ur line so weak ~ i love u but u are too weak to survive in my hostel =M= so u gonna go ~
i learn how to do the chicken 4 the BBQ when i went 4 the trip～ and my sis want me to do it at home ~

Flour ~

Eat chicken le~

so we had a BBQ party 4 the mooncake festival celebration~ this the second time d~ but last time it cook by my mom but this time my turn ~ ginger , onion , pepper and salt~ i satisfied with my work but not the weather~== OMG it rain when chicken wing is cook beautifully on the fire i set up 4 1 hour ~ fcuk ~         we replace the fire using a small pot ~ is not enough 4 us ~and it so difficult to cook ~ RAWR ~ can i bite u~ ==  the BBQ ended when my grandfather wanna finish the thing we cook~ my grandma not allow him to eat a lot cause he have diabetes and he had to go to the dialysis to wash his kidney 3 times a week ~ i also had the respond to take care wat he eat ~ although he can't stop himself from drinking the 3 in 1 coffee mix~

the following week ~ starting from tomoro ~ it may be will be the same as wat i do last week~ but tomoro my aunt will bring us 4 movie ~ she will watch THE SMURF and i and my sis will watch NASI LEMAK 2.0 ~and at Friday i will going back to KL to do preparation 4 the new sem~ i waiting 4 my new roommate~ hope she won't be difficult to handle~

and about myself ~ hmm~ wat to say ~ i still single after 1 sem ? lol ==
after 1 sem i stay in KL~ i learn many things ~ noe many friends and buddy ~
and wat is a wish to a person u love ~
the things tat should't belong to u , u must let go although u love it so much~ just like wat had i do~
i wanna use a friend identity to protect him from being hurt again ~ may be i can't help much ~ but i hope i can company him when he is sad  or happy~ as his brother and friend ~although i just a girl~
may be as a girl ~ the protection tat i can give is limit but i will try my best~
boyfriend ~ ok ~ i still waiting 4 the right person~ a relationship tat i want is not just a relationship ~ is he can company me till very long ~ till i graduate ,till i work ,till i can get marry with him ~ may be it is impossible this is a relationship i want ~ i don't want to play a fool with my 1st love ~
sorry 4 my selfish ~ i just a fat , ugly stupid girl ~ but i still demand tat much cause i don't want to get hurt~
so i prefer to wait  than wasting my time with a hopeless and hurting relation ~
i can fall in love with a person easily but that didn't mean tat i must get together with tat person if it not suit 4 me ~ i just want a person tat fully loyal to me ~sorry ~i'm so selfish~

if  time can turn back to the time i enter into the college i will still do the same thing~no regret with my choice till now~ tears and laugh tat gave by u ~ is all a memory tat make me growth ~
u r my best friend and a good teacher to be teaching me wat is the meaning of being a new person ~
thx ~

也许放手，是最好的选择～
东西不属于你，再怎么执着，你也得不到它～
谢谢你的好～